My Days In College Are Over

This is not how I envisioned my college career ending.

One month ago, this virus was an afterthought to me. What college student one month ago could truly say that this virus would be responsible for the school year ending in March? My guess is no one.

And yet here we are today, with all of this becoming a reality. It truly sucks.

On Wednesday, March 11th, my school got an email stating that we would not be having in-person classes until March 30th. I remember when I first read over that email. I had no doubt in my mind that I went to my last class that previous Thursday, spent my last ever college weekend with my best friends, went to the bar for the last time on a Thursday night, and had my last ever “social hour” with my best friends at dinner.

It was wishful thinking to expect to return to school on the 30th.

Then, yesterday, we received an email from our university president making my previous thoughts a reality. All classes will be held online indefinitely.

I didn’t feel much of anything when I read through that email. Partly because I expected it, partly because I was in shock, and partly because I was in denial.

After sitting on it for 30 minutes, my mom told me dinner was ready. I didn’t have an appetite for food at the moment, my world officially came crashing down.

I started tearing up before I began to eat. I told myself I would go to my bedroom after and just, cry.

For the 45 minutes I sat in my bed, I had no tears streaming down my face. I was just sitting there, wondering why I wasn’t crying. It was surreal.

Then I got the idea to put my thoughts on video. I took out my phone and said whatever I was thinking at that moment.

The video is dedicated to my best friends. The people who I have formed lifelong friendships with.

The 12 minute and 40-second video was straight from the heart. My real, raw emotions being displayed on camera.

It was also the first video I didn’t do any editing for whatsoever. It needed to feel real, and be seen by only the people who made the biggest impact on my college career. This video will be for our eyes and ears only, forever.